Hepi Nu Year..

Well.. hepi nu year to all of ya, just like the sms i receive from me fren. Carry a heart that never hates, carry a smile that never fades, carry a touch that never hurts and always carry a relationship that never breaks!!! Wish all of ya happy Nu Year..

My Nu Years resolution? nah.. shud i put it here or wut? Im not sure but i just wanna put it this way..

1. I want.. bla bla bla bla bla
2. I want.. bla bla bla bla bla
3. I want.. bla bla bla bla bla...
4
5
10. I want..bla bla bla bla bla


But most of all.. aku nak jadi manusia. Doaku "Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku seorang manusia yg mampu utk merubah sikap ke arah yg lebih baik, ubahkanlah segala sikap burukku dan berikanku petunjuk ke arah jalan yg lebih baik dan ke arah jalan kebenaran demi keranaMu ya Allah" itu jer pintaku yg sebenarnya utk tahun baru nie.

Assalamualaikum..

Selamat Hari Raya Korban.

Salam Aidiladha buat semua pada hari ini, aku skadar luangkan waktu boringku di sini, bukan aku pinta utk jadi begini, tapi sudah lumrah kulepaskan segalanya disini.

Dua tiga hari nie aku demam lagi, bukan sebab aku tak gosok gigi, tapi sebab sebab hujan yg turun hampir setiap hari, dan mungkin jugak sebab aku yg tak pandai menjaga diri. Tul ker?

Tahun baru menjelang tiba, takkan ku sambut dengan perasaan hiba, tanak celebrate sebab tak sker tgk orang meraba-raba, lagi baik aku kerja dari makan duit riba.

2008 kan ku nanti dgn penuh harapan, disamping memikir tentang masa depan, akan masih lagikah aku punya harapan, utk cita2ku yg sekian lama ku simpan?

Aku malas dan penat fikir yg bukan-bukan, lagi baik aku ajak kengkawan kluar gi makan, tapi kesian gak tgk mangsa banjir kat pekan, tapi its a nice day to be alive kan? :)
Assalamualaikum..

Rokok..

Ketagihan nikotin di kalangan perokok seperti aku semakin hari semakin meningkat naik. Takyah tgk kat statistik pun kita suma dah tau yg smakin hari smakin ramai bilangan prokok kat mesia nie. Dan aku pun dah hampir putus asa utk mencarik cara brenti mrokok. Dulu aku pernah berhenti tapi bila aku start balik, aku makin kuat mrokok. Sehari aku bleh abeskan dalam skotak besar dan kekadang tu lebih. Kalau nak diikutkan scara kasar dan purata aku abiskan lebih kurang 45 kotak dunhill besar sebulan. Dan kalau diikutkan dari segi rm maleh aku nak kira sebenarnya. Kalau bayar utang orang pun dah lama abes tp tuh laa.. aku macam bazirkan duit utk sesuatu yg tak elok. Yg boleh membunuh diri aku sendiri. Tapi nak buat camner?

Ada tak sesapa yg ada petua atau cara atau ikhtiar yg bley tolong aku camner aku nak benti mrokok? Sebab buat orang yg merokok nie seperti orang yg tak sayangkan diri sendiri. Dan kalau kita tak belajar utk menyayangi diri sendiri, macam mana kita nak menyayangi orang lain ek? (sambil gegaruk paler yg tak gatal) hehehe.. pening dowh. Patut la aku tak pandai nak sayang orang sebab aku tak belajar lagi camner utk sayang diri aku sendiri .. Tapi tak kisah la sebab hidup ini masih indah selagi kita masih bernafas. Tapi mebbe talian hayat aku kurang sket dari korang yg tak merokok. Peace!!! :)

Terlupa..

Secara sedar atau tak sengaja. Aku terlupa terus utk mengambil kembali cawan yg telah kuletakkan. Yg dah baca entry seblom nie for sure tau apa maksud cawan tu. But the f**kin problem is aku letak cawan tu terlalu lama dan dah sampai masanya aku ambik balek cawan tu dan pegang seberapa lama yg boleh. Kalau boleh aku akan selesaikan sebelum tahun ini berakhir. Sedar tak sedar dah nak ujung tahun dan tahun 2008 plak akan menjelma. Cepat sungguh dowhh masa.. sedar tak sedar umur makin meningkat walau jiwa dan hati masih muda belia. Teruja dengan meningkatnya umur mebbe. Atau teruja dengan hari2 yg akan datang aku masih tak pasti.

Masa aku menaip nie aku sebenarnya masih tak cukup tdo lagi. Balek keje part time smalam kul 3.30pg dan sampai rumah dah kul 4 dan aku tdo kul 4 lebih aku tak pasti. Pagi tadi plak aku keje cam biasa.. penat tapi tak boleh nak tdo plak time2 cenggini. Pening paler dowhh.. kekadang tension pun ada. Rasa cam nak telan pil tidur jer tapi tu bukan cara aku. Tapi tak kisah laa.. as long aku dah ready nak angkat balek cawan aku dan akan aku tatang cawan tu dengan berhati2 dah berhemah. Hope everythings gonnabe ok for me after this. I need my life back and i need to be me. So skang nie aku tgh macam lek lek cool jer layan kepala skang nie. Masukkan entry dalam blog sambil layan lagu yg bley buat aku tenang so aku nak kongsi lagu nie ngan korang walaupun aku pernah masukkan lagu nie seblom nie. Irama dia buatkan aku lena giler..




No Surprises
A heart that's full up like a landfill,
a job that slowly kills you,
bruises that won't heal.
You look so tired-unhappy,
bring down the government,
they don't, they don't speak for us.
I'll take a quiet life,
a handshake of carbon monoxide,

with no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
Silent silence.

This is my final fit,
my final bellyache,

with no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises please.

Such a pretty house
and such a pretty garden.

No alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises,
no alarms and no surprises please.


Lirik yg simple tapi layan. Korang dengarkan iramanya bebetul.. feeling abes dowhh.. tapi kalau korang takleh masuk.. takkan la aku nak paksa tak gitu? Setiap generasi punya citarasa sendiri.. am i rite?
So.. enjoy.. Assalamualaikum..

Commercial Break Part 9

Actually, i dont really want to think about my past life. But when it comes, just face it with our own way. And to be tough and to be cool, i luv to sing this song alone in my ugly van. Hehehehe.. come on and sing with me u guyz.. :)





Those were the days.. nice music nice song nice lyrics and mebbe the person who put this vid here is also nice? muahaha.. nah.. it just a nice day to be alive.. Enjoy this video from U2. With or without you.

Nikmat Hidup

Aku tak tahu kenapa, tapi sekarang nie aku banyak tersenyum. Bukan nak kata buang tebiat, tapi aku memang sker tersenyum walaupun senyuman aku takla semanis mana pun. Tader yg akan terpikat pun dengan senyuman aku. Tapi aku punya sebab sendiri utk tersenyum lebar. Senyum yg lahir dari hati aku sendiri, senyum yg bagi aku tersimpan seribu makna dan membuatkan aku rasa aku semakin muda. Ye ker aku muda? Aku dah 31 dah pun tapi perangai aku tak macam orang yg berumur 31 dan orang cakap aku tak nampak cam 31 pun. Betul ker? Wallahuallam.. itu aku tatau sebab aku tak boleh nak judge diri aku sendiri.

Tapi start next week, aku nak tgk wayang...takpun gi main bowling ker. Tapi tak kisah la samada aku pegi sesorang ke atau ngan sapa ker, janji aku nak kluar dari kepompong life aku skang nie. Ada brani? Jom join ngan aku. Masalah dalam diri aku memang ada. Semua orang ada masalah tapi cuba korang bayangkan. Utk korang yg punya masalah yg besar laa.. apa kata korang angkat satu cawan kaca dan luruskan tangan korang sambil memegang cawan kaca tue. Berapa lama korang boleh bertahan? Dan apa pula yg akan terjadi? Berat cawan tu akan tetap sama tapi tangan korang akan merasa lenguh dan letih. Apa kata cawan tu korang anggap sebagai masalah korang, korang letak balek.. rehatkan dia dan lupakan dia utk beberapa ketika sampai tangan korang dah ok balek. Lepas tu baru korang angkat balek cawan kaca tue. Sama gak macam masalah, ada ketikanya kita kena lupakan masalah buat seketika dan buat benda lain yg takder sangkut paut dengan masalah yg kita ada. InsyaAllah.. kita akan dapat jawapan pada masalah kita. Sounds simple kan? Walau tak semuda yg disangka, tapi kalau kita tak cuba kita tatau kan?

Tu jer kot buat arini. Nak ngarut lelebih pun aku tatau tapi one thing for sure, im happy to be me. And happy to be someone for someone. Hahahahaha.. this is only the same story but different chapter. :) And by the way.. its a nice day to be alive kan? Peace!!!

Arrgghhh..

Aku tatau nak buat apa.. aku tgh runsing tapi aku akan suka sebab lepas nie aku akan bz, bila aku bz aku akan rasa tertekan.. dan bila aku rasa tertekan sebab bz.. aku suker. Satu cabaran buat aku tentang bagaimana cara utk aku handle tekanan aku. Tapi sebelom tu.. arrgghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aku agak tertekan dengan hidup aku, tapi orang kata tekanan pasti ada seblom tiba masanya utk kita rasa selesa. tu jer.
see ya!!

Just for laugh!!

In Malaysia, sometimes, our ministers write the jokes themselves.

Transcript of Malaysia's Information Minister's interview with Al Jazeera News on the Bersih Protest.


Minister: I commend yo-yo-your journalists trying to project... to exaggerate more than what actually happened. That-that-that-that's it. We are not the-the and I-I congratulate your journalists behaving like an actor, that-that's it...

Reporter: As you say that, sir, we're watching scenes of protesters being sprayed by chemical-filled water!

Minister: YA! I am watching! I'm here! You've been trying... trying to do it this - to do this everywhere but in Malaysia people are allowed to, you know? We know our police head our colleague... Police have whatever allowed the procession to go to the Istana Negara, you know? Do police, first police, like, they handle them, they attack them, they... the police don't, don't, don't fire anybody?

Reporter: Our correspondent came back to the office, sir, with chemicals in his eyes!

Minister:You-you-you-you are here with the idea, you are trying to project, what is your mind! You think that we Pakistan, we are Burma, we are Myanmar. Everything you-you are thinking! WE ARE DIFFERENT! We are totally different!

Reporter: Well unfortunately when you refuse to let people protest, it does appear so.

Minister: Ya ya we are not like you! You-you have earlier perception, you come here, you want to project us like undemocratic country. This a democratic country!

Reporter: So why can't people protest then, if it's a democratic country?

Minister: YES, PEOPLE PROTEST! People do-do... of course they protest. We are allowing them protest, and they have demonstrated. But we just trying to disperse them, and then later they-they-they don't wanna disperse, but later our police compromise. They have compromised and allowed them to proceed to Istana Negara! Police, our police have succeeded in handling them gently, right? Why do you report that? You take the opposition, someone from opposition party you ask him to speak. You don't take from the government, right?

Reporter: Why did you not break up these protests...

Minister: Pardon? Pardon? Pardon?

Reporter: Why did you not break up these protests more peacefully?

Minister: I can't hear you! I can't hear you!

Reporter: Why did you not break up these protests more peacefully?

Minister: No we-we are! We... this protest is illegal! We don't want..this... the... NORMALLY...

Reporter: OK, so let me return to my former question. Why is this protest illegal?

Minister: YA! It's a illegal protest because we have the erection in Malaysia. It's no-no point on having a protest! We are allowing to every erection... every five years never fail! We are not our like, like Myanmar, not like other country. And, and you are helping this. You Al-Jazeera also is helping this, this forces. The, you know, these forces who are not in passion, who don't believe in democracy!

Reporter: Alright, many thanks for joining us.

Minister: I don't, ya, you, Al-Jazeera, this is, is Al-Jazeera attitude. Right?

P/S : Was that even English he was speaking? I tell ya, these people just write the jokes themselves.

Credit to www.kennysia.com

10 November di Malaysia.

Kdt to Jinggo for this photo.

Jarang sangat ada masa utk masukkan entry dalam nie. Sebab bebaru nie aku sangat rasa teruja melihat kebangkitan rakyat yg dilabelkan sebagai Gelombang Kuning. Yang mana perarakan dan perhimpunan lebih 100,00 rakyat negara kita tanpa mengira kaum, bangsa dan agama. Bersatu dan berarak menujuk ke Istana Negara utk menyampaikan memorandum pada Yang DiPertuan Agong. Dan rata-rata ramai yg memakai baju kuning tanda diraja, tanda setiawakan dan tanda semangat cintakan negara yang berdaulat. Dan perarakan juga sebagai protes pada kerajaan yang dilihat sebagai amat lemah. Dari segi kepimpinan dan juga dari berbagai segi lagi. Aku tatau nak cakap apa pasal nie sebab aku bukan orang politik tapi sekurang-kurangnya aku sebagai seorang rakyat Mesia yg kerdil, aku dapat melihat akan perbezaan pada kepimpinan dan jugak tahu utk menilai walaupun kekadang aku jugak buat dosa dengan sengaja.Cuma satu jer aku nak ajak korang kalau korang nie memang rakyat Malaysia yang prihatin. Jadikanlah hari Sabtu setiap minggu hari utk kalian memakai baju kuning. Praktikkan dan nyatakan sokongan pada kebangkitan rakyat.

Commercial Break part 8

Luluh by Samson...
2..3 ari nie tetiba aku layan plak dengar lagu nih. Leleh n tangkap sendu abes dowhhh sampai terusik jiwa lelaki aku. Ekekekeke.. Enjoy!!!

Saja-saja jer.

Aku tatau kenapa tapi dengan tiba2 jer aku terfikir akan kisah hidup aku. Tentang wanita dalam kehidupan aku dan tentang kehidupan aku tanpa wanita disisi macam sekarang nie. Dulu masa zaman2 space cop Gaban yg tengah top dengan pertukaran diri dalam 0.5saat, aku pun lebih kurang macam tu jugak. Masa tu zaman baru nak 'up' la bak kata orang. Kengkunun awek pasang sampai 2..3 orang sekali. Sebab dulu aku bley dikategorikan lelaki yg bermulut manis. Orang kata la, tu pun lepas dorang cemolot ngan aku. Tak ker gampang giler ayat aku?

Tapi la nie bila aku hidup sendirian dengan kawan rapat cuma tinggal 2..3 kerat je, baru aku terfikir. Dulu masa ada someone special, aku nie jenis yg tak pedulikan dorang sangat dan kalau putus pun aku bley main blah cenggitu jer. Masa tu aku tak amek port pun kalau dorang maki dalam ati atau sedih cam cipan mati anak ker atau merayu aku balik ke apa ker. Memang ati keras tahap dewa peringkat 18. Memang aku tak pernah ambik peduli. Tapi bila sampai satu tahap yg boleh aku panggil diri aku sendiri sebagai dewasa. Dan bila tahap aku mula main cintan secara sepenuh masa aka serius. Aku plak kena tinggal dengan gf yg aku sayang sebagaimana aku pernah buat kat orang dulu. Mungkin doa bebekas aweks aku zaman gaban tu bebetul kena kat aku sampai sekarang nie. Biasanya doa orang tgh sedih atau teraniaya dimakbulkan. Macam pepatah omputeh tu "what goes around comes around dude!!!" Bukan sekali aku terkena, malah 2 kali but so far blom masuk kali ke 3 laa. Dan aku pernah hampir mereng cam stereng kena pusing time korner baring. But so far, itu semua pengalaman hidup. Dan aku tak pernah takut utk mencuba lagi cuma kali nie aku jadi terlalu atau sangat berhati hati di jalanraya. hehehehe

So, buat korang kat luar tu, hargailah dan sayangi apa yang korang ada walau tak sempurna. Sebab sekali kita terlepas org yg bebetul kita sayang, selamanya dia akan tinggalkan kita. Walaupun selamanya jugak dorang lepak parking dalam hati kita, sekurang kurangnya kalau satu hari nanti aku pergi lepak dunia gaban, at least aku ada bekalan yang kupanggil kenangan terindah utk aku bawak sampai mati. Itu dah cukup buat aku. But heii!!!! Aku belom nak mati lagik laa. Dosa banyak lagi tak tertebus nie. Takut woOOOo kalau mati skang nie. Tapi apapun, sama-samalah kita nikmati hidup kita cause it's a nice day to be alive kan? Peace!!!!

Mapik jer..

Start jumaat lepas aku dah start buat keje part time aku dari pukul 10mlm sampai 2 pagi. Keje apa tue? tayah la korang tau sebab bukan penting pun buat korang. Biasa la dok kl nie.. nak kena carik duit lebih sket. So skarang nie free time aku sedikit terbatas. Waktu free yg aku ada skang nie cuma dari Isnin sampai Khamis dari jam 2 ptg sampai tgh malam. Tu jer waktu yg ada kalau aku nak lepak ngan memember ke apa ker. Ari minggu bley gak lepak, tapi aku penat so aku gunakan waktu yg ada hari Ahad tu utk tidur jer.

Dan waktu nie aku rasa masih ramai orang yang dalam mood raya dan sudah menjadi tradisi rakyat mesia nie ikut seskati makpak dorang, maka dorang nie buatla open house kengkunun utk mengeratkan silaturrahim dan aku pun tak terkecuali nak buat gak. Walhal nak raya nie bukan kira orang tu open ke idak umah dia, kalau kita nak datang ziarah just ketuk jer pintu umah. Kita nak ngeratkan hubungan silaturrahim kan? bukan nak datang braya mintak duit raya. Time kekecik dulu bley laa, siap smuggle gegula lam poket bebanyak sampai tuan umah geleng kepala sebab tatau nak cekau xtra gegula lagik. Sebab time raya banyak kedai tutup, beli stok tak banyak plak tue. hehehehe

So, secara rasminya buat sesapa yang kenal aku dan yang tak kenal tapi nak ikut slamber derk je datang umah aku pun takper.. aku persilakan gak la, kalau tanak bersila korang berdiri jer tepi umah aku pun takper. Tak jadi masalah buat aku dan jugak buat korang yang datang. Pakaian bebas. Kita bukan nak pergi halloween party atau ladies nite. Kita nak datang beraya..open house nie. So, buat anda semua adalah dijemput utk menghabiskan makanan yg aku tatau kurang ke atau terlebih masak ker pada hari Ahad bersamaan 4 hb November 2007.

Alamat : NO 92, JLN TPS 3/5, Taman Pelangi Semenyih, Semenyih.

Kalau sesat sila call no nie : 012-3613369 (tuan rumah open house ngan blog nie)

Kalau makanan sedap ke idak ker komplen kat aku. Hehehehe.. sebab aku tgh tatau menu apa nak dibuat sebenarnya. Ada idea menarik? Yg pasti aku jemput korang utk datang makan jer, jgn banyak hal.. hahahaha

Ok laa,, chow dulu. Apa2 hal pun hidup ini cukup indah sebab kita masih lagi bernafas kan? Walau aku hidup sendirian tak berteman.. chewahh.. blah laa man!!!
Chow!! PEACE!!!!

Season for the Gunners

For the people out there. Don't get jealous with the photo. And don't get mad when u see the EPL chart rite now. It just too good to be true. With the young player's and small budget. Win 10 matches without lost any game. Argghhh..too good when the season begin. To ayen, what happen to ur team bro? and for MU fans.. back off!!! and to cik kambeng if u read this. Im sorry for what happen to ur team Chelsea and dont get jealous with my team ok?

And for muslim all over the world (macam la blog aku nie satu dunia yang baca walhal dua tiga kerat orang jer) wishing u happy hari raya idulfitri. It's the winning days for muslim after fasting for a months. So kususun 10 jari memohom maaf dari kalian andai pernah ku terkasar bahasa tersilap perkataan terpeluk cium tergeget manja terluah kata cinta sayang termakan minum dan termacam2 lagi yang demm giler aku tatau nak sumbat dalam nie. And for the loves one. Errkk...sori.. yang nie aku blom ada lagik...hahaha prasan dowhh. maafkan aku zahir dan batin. And do remember. U guyz is always in my heart cause without u fren. Life is not a nice day to be alive kan?

So. keep on smiling faces and keep on moving. No matter how hard or how far u will go with just one thing in ur mind. It's a nice day to be alive. :)

Aku mamat blur

Lama gler tak menaip dalam nie. Gian dan stim plak rasanya tapi still tatau dowh nak taip apa lagi sebab skang nie life cam shit giler. Perubahan kena buat sebab kalau tak buat makin teruk shit gler babeng kang. Ok la..lemme tell the truth bout me. Aku sebenarnya banyak berhutang dengan orang dan sebulan di bulan puasa nie aku tak bekerja, nak ikut member aku buat keje pun dia dah cukup pekerja. Maka dengan itu aku terpaksa menganggur selama sebulan. Dan di waktu yang sama moto aku rosak balik dan van aku masuk bengkel tak kuar lagi sampai skarang sebab tgh overhaul dan aku dgn muka tak malu soh abg aku setelkan.

Jadi sekarang nie aku tgh buat menda baru. Nak tau apa yang aku buat sekarang nie korang just klik kat sini jer. http://www.uptrendbiz.net/komeng
Aku skang nie dah tak kisah apa orang nak kata..cuma aku minta maaf pada sesapa yg aku berhutang tu tapi aku janji akan selesaikan secepat yg mungkin selepas raya nie.

Dan di kesempatan yang ada ini, dengan raya yg dah dekat, dengan life tonggang terbalek aku. Aku nak ucapkan selamat hari raya buat semua yg kenal aku dan tak kenal aku, senang citer pada suma umat Islam dalam dunia nie. Maaf zahir dan batin aku ucapkan walaupun aku tau raya tahun nie merupakan raya paling hambar dalam hidup aku. Kena lak aku cam kena sambut raya nie cam sendirian jer. Aku tatau samada aku patut sedih ke gembira ke blur ke apa ker, serius aku tatau. Sebab yg aku tau aku memang takkan sambut raya nie macam kebiasaannya. Mebbe aku just akan dok umah jer sepanjang 2..3 hari pertama.. dan start kerja macam biasa raya yg ke -4.

Tu jer kot utk kali nie. Im outta here, see u guys. Terkadang itu aku terasa life nie sucks!!! kadang2 jer sebab aku tak boleh nak kata life ini sucks sebab title blog aku nie. So, it's a nice day to be alive. Peace!!

Selamat.

Happy fasting day.. to everybody. I dont really hav a mood to put my entry for today. And yet, im sick + headache + miserable and so on and so on and bla bla bla bla. Too much trouble in my life and too much pressure. Will be back soon.

Merdeka...???

Our merdeka day is just around the corner. Tonight, we malaysian celebrating our 50 years of independent. I'm proud to be malaysian anyway but.. i just hate our system. I don't know why but i just hate. No need to explain but once u malaysian, u already knows.

But one thing i would love to ask myself. What have i done for my country? and what have u done for your country? And with our daily needed is increase like shit and index of criminal also increase especially in kuala lumpur and selangor, and with the sleeping beauty as our prime minister and i still have alot of shitlist but better for me to not put it in here, it just taking my space to mumbling and better for you to check about it by yourself.

And for those who already qualified enough to vote, be wise to choose ur leader. And as malaysian, we have to save our malaysia from becoming the no1 corruption n ridiculous government in the world. Our media is also controlling by the government and for some certain issues, they don't even publish to public. Where's the responsibility of some people nowadays?

This is something to think about " dapatkah bangsa kita bangun menjadi bangsa yang maju, bermoral tinggi serta bermaruah jika sejarah perjuangan dan makna kemerdekaan masih tidak difahami dengan betul serta direalisasikan sepenuhnya dalam kehidupan seharian?"

And if u asking me, am i proud to be malaysian? for sure i am proud to be malaysian but, hehehe.. don't ask me why. Till then, i just hope u guys out there to be proud and wise as malaysian. Even im not wise enough to directing my life as well. Because im just the nobodies to change this world but i know who i am and where i stand. I'm just lost myself for a moment.

And happy merdeka day to all malaysian and for me i just celebrating this merdeka cause it just another day in my life and it's a nice day to be alive anyway. :)

Just me

This pic above is the new me, but still the same person same attitude and bla bla bla bla. :P

Can u spot the different? Well, im not trying to make over myself anyway. Just crack under pressure for the last few weeks till now but today im back to be a normal.

Arrrgghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! but.. it's a nice day to be alive. Thanks God!! :)

Nothing..

Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
you don't have to force your smiles for anyone
it's ok to smile...for yourself.

That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me
a single candle burns still inside
there shouldn't be and expensive chandelier in a wild place like this
can i really bury it all with empty words?

I don't even know anymore..
as long as we can swim freely in our dreams
we won't need that sky anymore
Even if u can't let go of the past
i'll still be there to meet you tomorrow.

Your fragile, folded wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
you don't have to force your smile for anyone
It's ok to smile... for yourself.

Art Event

Actually im not promoting this or what.. Just i really wanted to be there. And looking for anyone who wants to accompany me.. Does anyone out there is available to join me that day? Well.. Art event is quite new for me but willing to try just like theatre.. :P
Cause it still a nice day to be alive :)

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Indonesian band - Rama
Title of the song - Bertahan






good for ur ears before sleeping.. :)

Activities on Saturday..

Interchan bowling tournament - that was the acticity that i take part since how many years, and also i do not know. Quite good but a bit bored and Ampang point superbowl is the place, and my highest score that day is only 157. Very bad and i think it was my mistake cause some people telling me, training a day before is not good for the tournament. But its ok laa.. cause our team end up in 3rd place. Ahh.. i just hope that i can do better so our team could get 2nd or if we lucky enough maybe we can be the winner. And 3rd place is good enough for us than nothing rite? then having our dinner at pelita and the next is having fun at karaoke, quite a long time i did not in karaokeing session.. hahaha but still, bit boring and quite funny la jugak.

So..dat was my yesterday activity and wut's next to join? Well i think i need to concentrate on my job after this. Fasting month is about to come and for sure im off for a month. So i depending on my part time job. And make it full time so i hav more time to enjoying my job i guess. But the big problem now is, my bike is out of service plus i need to renew my roadtax n insurance for my van. And one thing u guys dont know about me is.. the biggest secret, i dont even have a driving licence. Can u believe it? Been driving since i was 17, being mat-motor-tapi-tak-merempit when i was 18-22, and till now i dont even hav a driving licence. Wut a joke!!

But today im here..blogging my day. And feels like im starting again from the very first beginning. I need to move on!! move on!! And by the way.. i just keep my spirit up by doing this. And this is the sms i like the most and i just receive from my chatting friend. "I dont expect to be the most important person in your life, that is too much to ask for. What would make me happy is that 1 day if u ever hear my name, u'll smile and say, That is my friend!!"

Till then.. hav a good weekend to everyone.. and yet. Its a nice day to be alive :)

She..my beloved.

She's old.. even im older than her.. she sick but im still keep pushing her to the limit. I never take care of her.. but she's taking me everywhere before. I do sleep with her but she never complain. She's always take good care of me.. but i just take her for granted. And today, she dont even want to make a move but i do keep pushing her, little by little...but she admit. And then i push her again to her last limit, to the infinity and because she love's me, she do wut it takes to move again. And lastly our relationship is over after i'm safe to be here. At ma home. Thanks to my beloved Mitsubishi Delica cause u always there when i need u. So, take a rest for a moment and i will take care of u later.

It's not easy to achieve what we want in life, cause in the moment we climb, alot of things happen, just like what happen to me and my beloved MD. My bike is out of service already and she is sick. Damnn!!! what else after this? Come on man, fight and fight n fight again. And this..is for me.

i've been here so long
just watching u
standing there so cold
from time to time,

As i pray to God
it wont be a thousand years
and here i kneel
in freezing snow,

Plssss God help me
show my way
I know..my tears wont dry
Just make them see its aint true
To keep this soul
Behind this wall...

p/s : another tough day for me but still.. keep on smiling cause it's a nice day to be alive :)

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Sunday.. in the world of competition.. where all ur contenders is aggressive enough and u also hav to be aggressive. Sometime things like lack of motivation is always comes to us. So we hav to fight and be cool..just laid back n doesn't mean we surrender. And this song is for meself. :)


Jimmy Eat World - The Middle





good song back in 2001 to lift someone up, even in troubled times like this when we need these kinda lyrics in the songs to lift up the spirits.....
And for the people out there whose lack of motivation.. listen to this song and u gonnabe ok..
Just remember.. it's a nice day to be alive.. :)

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This is one of my fav also...
There's nothing to remember and there's nothing to hide. And i did not dedicated this song to anybody. Just for meself.. Enjoy this song

Alhamdulillah - Too Phat





Alhamdulillah.. Thanks Allah to keep me breathing and alive.

Yesterday...

Heavy rain and non stop for the whole days. Supposed to play bowling with a couple of me frens. But then i hav to cancelled so i've changing my plan. Just hanging out lepaking at mapley then watching movie around 9. Die Hard 4.0 and like always, the heroes is always hard to die or will never never die? But its ok la... as long i fill my days with couple of my fren than staying at my club.

And Yesterday is also my very first time since Februari, im sleeping at home for this year. Because before this i used to sleep somewhere outside, but cant tell u where laaa.. just my closest friends know where it is. :)

And im off this wednesday cause i hav to attend this one course organise by CIMB unit trust. And i need to complete my registration by tomorrow and i hope everythings gonnabe ok for me.

And heavy rain yesterday remind me of something. Something that i used to forget but always keep coming back. Hey u people out there!! Still phobia driving in heavy rain? yahh.. i guess u still. Be good k.

And sorry for this useless n crappy entry. Not in a good mood anyway but still.. it's a nice day to be alive :)

A Strong Woman..

Actually i'm kinda bored today coz i hav no idea for my entry. So i just open n surfing into myspace then i've found this. And this is dedicated to woman all over the world. :) enjoy..

A Strong Woman
is one who feels deeply
and love fiercely.
Her tears flow
just as abundantly
as her laughter.

A Strong Woman
is both soft and powerful.
She is both
practical and spiritual.

A Strong Woman
in her essence
is a gift to all the world.


the end.. and cdt goes to Aisha - my buddies gf.. :)

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Ada masa aku tringat zaman skolah aku.. dan ini antara lagu yang aku sker dengau zaman tu.. enjoy my pren...




and this is the other one.. asyik sungguh dowhh aku layan.. Nostalgia zaman lama.. old skool. perghhh!!!.. Aku pun gheti gak nak layan2 lagu jiwang nie.. ingat aku tader prasaan ka? muhahahahhahahaha

This is me..

Harini aku cam blur kejap, khayal dalam dunia aku yang tersendiri yang penuh dengan keasyikan. Aku jadi macam taktau nak buat apa-apa, macam Ultraman yg dengan slamber bodO kena fire ngan resakse. Tapi macam biasa, Ultraman akan dapat balik power dia and kick ass itu resakse sebab dia hero cite dan dah tajuk citer dia pun dah memang Ultraman dowh..

Tapi aku tanak jadi cam Ultraman sebab aku syukur dengan diri aku. Dan menjadi diri sendiri adalah perkara yang paling bagus buat aku. Ayat cam poyo la plak, cuma aku perlu serapkan semangat Monkey D Luffy dalam diri aku. Kalau korang nak tau sapa Luffy korang pergi cari kat internet nie. Ada Wikipedia dia dan gambar kat atas nie yang pakai topi jerami.

Walau macam mana teruk dan walau sucks gler babeng pun life aku. Aku terima semua dengan senyuman sebab setiap kali aku bangun tidur aku rasa aku masih bernafas. Dan aku rasa aku mampu corakkan hidup aku dengan cara yang aku nak. Sebab apa? Cause it's a nice day to be alive.. :)

Mistaken Identity

Happy weekend to everyone. First of all i just wanna let u know my reason doing this blog. Actually this blog supposed to be making money oriented. By publishing my blog everywhere to earn money from google adsense. And also to improve my english which is so broken just like i said before. Is my word correct? Correct me if i'm wrong. But then, i'm not quite happy with the statistic on my google account about the money i earn even i know im not doing it well. So i guess, better for me to campuradukkan dan menggulaikarikan bahasa. Sounds good enough? hehehehe

Jadi, kira-kiranya yang nie jadik pokok pangkal utk aku mencampur adukkan bahsa biar jadi tunggang langgang tonggeng tebalek yang aku rasa biar orang malaysia jer tau apa yang aku taip. So, <--- salah satu pertambahan ayat yang merosakkan bahsa malaysia yang mana rakyatnya dah banyak yang rosak.. aku nak bagitau yang minggu depan aku akan mendaftar. Utk apa? Kena la ushar balik aku punya previous entry. Hehehehe.. dan aku kena bersiap sedia menyemartkan diri aku dan melengkapkan kepala otak aku dengan pemikiran yang tahap gaban dia punya ready dan mentelaah dan mengkaji selidik apa yang perlu sebagai persediaan aku utk menghadapi kursus dan priksa yg cam ala ala zaman aku skolah dulu utk pastikan aku lulus secepat yg mungkin. Cuma rambut aku jer yang dah mengilai sampai takat bahu yg srabai tapi aku ikat kemas gak time kuar, blom ready utk dikorbankan utk bulan nie. Mebbe minggu kedua bulan depan aku ready kot dan atas sebab apa.. tayah la korang tau, korang bukan bz body kan? Dan by the end of this month im stepping into one new world. In order to be the different of me. Totally!! And i really mean it such as an important breaking point in my life.

So.. kengkorang kat luar sana, doakanlah utk perubahan diri aku dan aku juga pasti akan berbuat yang sama utk korang. Cukup dengan sgala kebodohan diri selama ini yang jauh dari jalan bercahaya .. sebab dah korner time nak masuk simpang trus masuk jalan gelap. Seb baik ada kawan yang tunjukkan jalan utk aku dan trima kasih aku ucapkn yang bukan sedikit.. tapi stinggi .. errr.. tinggi apa ek? Setinggi tinggi tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua.. Ekkekekeekek. And for those person, i do really appreciate ur kindness.

Dan nota kaki : sentiasa ingat selalu, jgn mudah mengalah dan jgn bermuram ala 6 jahanam yang nak kena balas dendam dengan p.ramlee, sentiasa tayang gigi korang dan tunjukkan lesung pipit yang ada.. kalau ada laa.. tader tu jgn nak prasan. Dan slalu syukur sebab ianya hari yang bagus sebab kita masih bernafas. Its a nice day to be alive. Peace!!

Padan Muka!!

My routine life is just like this. Wake up on 5.30a.m, do what do i hav to do, then go to work and also calling me friend for wake up call cause she dont know how to wake up by herself. What laaa?? but..its fun. Wake up ur friend by calling them.

And after finish my work around 12 today, i take photo for registration at photo shop around my place then i go to my club. It's friday remember? And i totally forgot that i hav to solat Jumaat but then when i stay at cyber cafe around 2, come this fella asking me for my ic. "Bak ic jap..sronok main chat? banyak dapat awek?" he ask me..but i just keep on smiling then giv my ic to him. And its not just me cause another 12 people outside having the same experience, they kick our ass into this ugly van or what they call it? Whatever.. then they drive us to balai polis Cheras for urine test. And luckily, i have nothing to worry cause im clean. No drugs, no alcohol, no ice, no free sex hehehe.. kidding. And most of us clean enough to get charged. And u know what? They taking us from our place by van.. then they release us just like that. One of my friend said "buat ugi duit nak bayar cab balik jer nie kang, dah angkut bukan nak antar balik " and that is so damn true. And here i am, sitting back infront of this to blogging this silly thing. And to one of my friend, enjoy ur dinner at Legend.

And this is the video clip for today - "padan muka aku"
video klip tader kena mengena ngan padan muka aku.. tapi stakat nak layan tension dengar lagu keras sket.. but cool :)

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actually its been a month im not listening to this music. So.. let's share and this is just another commercial break from me.. nice song. :)

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this
this is just my mind
a way to keep time
clasping at straws
grabbing at branches

i was supposed to go and see my blind date tonight
but its full moon
and i can't feel the top of my head

i do not understand..

do you find people hate you now?
all those years ago you must have thought yourself invincible.
oh but hate takes too much effort.
i am sorry for us.

so sorry..


ps: credit to dead air space

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7 out of 10

could try harder

could do better, lacks correct motivation

my opinion?? (of course) he`s crackerjack (u know)

lacks motivation, full of own self importance

always shoothing his mouth off

tends to stray from the path

Not as good as that one there...

no not this one category..

sticker..list..position..

never was..

never will be again,

the only way is down,,

so now ambels around aimlessly...

casting around for that magic.. me

it is denied...

searches for own epitaph in graveyard.


ps : credit to dead air space.

Stuck!!!

Actually..i do hav plan today. To hang out with my friends to watch a movieTransformers. But then.. i sms him and call him but he's not yet wake up. So i just go to JPN to renew mykad cause the previous one is already broke into two. Then here i am. Sitting infront this pc surfing on internet, chatting and playing quiz on irc. Wutelse to do? Just like yesterday, im supposed to hav a blind date.. hehehe. But its not happen so i just stay here.. Im stuck!!!..

My next step is to open CIMB account and i wonder, where is the closest CIMB from my place? Yah.. i need to check it out after this. And listening to big hits of 90's on yahoo launchcast, make me feel like i'm 10 years younger than how i am today :)

ps : just smile to ppl and u get it back in return.. what a beautiful life.. :)

help!!!!!

And today is the most boring day in my life. The worst and sucks from any day.
And i dont even receive any sms from any friend of mine. And im bored to dead. And why is Sunday this lately is always a boring day for me?? why??

Got any answer me fren?

Tag for charity

I've been tagged by layd^lurv aka ummi.. and its for charity anyway.. And this is my support to u Mr Idham for Darul Izzah Orphanage.

1. A person is only as good as .human being....................................
2. Friendship is always ..good and miserable for me??
3. To love is to..be friends forever and stuck forever?? hehehe
4. Money makes me...happy and greedy and enjoyable
5. I miss ..my memories
6. My way of saying I care is by ..show my concern n responsibility.
7. I try to spread love and happiness by..sending sms just like the others
8. Pick the flowers when..err..im not gonna do that..unless i was miserable enough
9. To love someone is to..to be love in return till the end of time.....
10. Beauty is..mystery..............................................................
11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was..im so happy coz i've got nothing to worry about......................
12. When I was twenty one, I remember..hanging out with mazrin and listen to the cranberries song..................................................
13. I am most happy when .i dont even hav a problem..................................
14. Nothing makes me happier than ..my dream come true................
15. If I can change one thing, I will change..there is no IF in this world.......
16. If smiles were..always fake.........then I..rather be alone.........
17. Wouldn't it be nice if we could..living in the world without corruption
18. If you want to .get some............then you have to ..gain some..............
19. Money is not everything but..if u dont hav money, u got nothing..........................
20. The most touching moments I have experienced is..atas bumbung One Utama.(my secret) ...............
21. I smile when..i wanted to.................................................
22. When I am happy, I..wanna make sure ppl around me also happy....................................
23. If only I don't have to .cry.............., then.....i smile..always....................
24. The best thing I did yesterday was still smiling even in anger
25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title,"..How to live as a loser .................................."
26. One thing I must do before I die is..get married n having a baby.........................
27. Doing this meme, I feel like ..headache hehehe..........................

I'm done doing this.

Mumbling..

Well.. first of all, Happy Birthday to my dear fren and u know who u are. And sorry to you cause i was supposed to call you last night to sing you a birthday song but then i just call u this morning to sing it for you. And sorry also for not accompany you to see ur investors today and i shouldn't say NO to a birthday girl. Im so sorry also cause i'm out of cash to buy something for you on your precious day. I do have plan, but have to cancelled for good reason. And i just can wish u hav a great day and may God bless you my friend. And dont think about how old are u but just think about how nice u are. :)

Next story is..DAMN!!!! Thierry Henry is moving to Barcelona? What the F**k is he doing? Money for sure and new environment. Ermm.. and its not easy for Arsenal to take lead on this new premier season. And by the way, Barca is one of my favourite team outside premier leageu. Im just not happy with the moving anyway and it is not good for Arsenal even they still have alot of young player which is energetic, inspired n hungry for the championship title.

And what's next?? There's nothing more for today unless i already put another few name on my friendlist. And also a few things to settle down this week. Quite lonely but still happy. And i think i need a gf before fasting day. But ..err.. is anyone out there available for me? I mean someone like me? Muahahaha.. just kidding. But some people dont believe me when i told them i dont have a gf. What a life but.. life is still great. Cause for me.. remember dis word " its a nice day to be alive" rite? :)

Till we meet again. Salamss...

Another Boring Day..

Heh.. got nothing to do anyway.. then i read again my blog. Seems like this is not the real me. Too straight, too formal, too boring. But first of all, i wanna show my sympathy to my P lady for loosing her grandpa last few days. And as a friend, i'm so sorry cause i can't be there for you.

And bout the thing that i have to do, i need to postponed for another week coz i do still hav a lot of debt to settle down. And yet, im still not qualified as a wealth advisor cause i have to attend the exam and practical and so on and so on first. But nevermind, no need to rush about every single thing. Go slow but not to slow and still moving, low profile doesn't mean i give up or what. And just wanna let you know one thing, i born in a year of the dragon so..silent before destroy everything. :) well.. i just donno what to say anymore cause my english is not so f**kin good. But broken english will do laaa as long as u guys can understand.

Till then.. for people who still alive in this world, appreciate what u got and enjoy every single moment u have. Cause it's a nice day to be alive.

Unit Trust

This is what im doing this lately, but im still not qualified to take client cause i need to settle down all the little things such an exam, payment and so on and so on. I need a licence to do that and yet i am still new in this kind of things. And here it is...

For readers.. Do u want to know what Unit Trust is?

A unit trust fund is a collective investment scheme, which pools the savings of investors with similar investment objectives in a special "trust" fund managed by professional fund managers. The pooled monies in the unit trust fund will then be invested in a diversified portfolio of securities and other assets in accordance with the unit trust fund's investment objectives and as permitted under the Securities Commission's (SC) Guidelines on Unit Trust Funds. The investment scheme of a unit trust fund can be illustrated as a tripartite relationship between the manager, the trustee and the unitholders. The manager is responsible for the management and operations of the unit trust fund whilst the trustee holds all the assets of the unit trust fund. The obligations and rights of each of the three parties are specified in the Deed, (a legal document entered into between the manager and the trustee, and registered with the SC). The Deed regulates the duties and responsibilities of the manager and the trustee with regard to the operations of the trust fund and protects the unitholders' interests.

Credit to cimb-wealth advisors

My Horoscope For Today

The Bottom Line
A decision you make today may result in your placing your career above your family.
In Detail
A decision you make today will have far-reaching consequences, and it may result in your placing your career above your family. Switching your focus away from your personal life might not be such a bad idea right now. There is a lot of harmony at home, and your personal relationships have never been stronger. The people who love you also support your professional goals -- and they're willing to take a back seat for a little while. Make a plan for a family celebration once you meet your goals.

My First Step..

Wednesday, i already make a move, taking me out from my own world where i used to live. Eastin Hotel is the place.. with the title, Grand Business Opportunity. And its also taking me out my 50bucks.. :) but its ok for the started. By the way..they just telling us this and that and a bit like motivation seminar and yet, quite good for me. And i still hav alot to learn and to catch so i make it step by step.. go slow.

And thanks to my friend aja for inviting me to join this kind of group. And being a good driver for me last nite.. but still worth it cause dinner is on me. :)

Quote for the day : let's make the money work for u, not u work for the money..
that's all for today entry :)

I just dont know..

Well.. this is my second post. Actually i just dont know what to do so i just explore what they have in here. I mean in this blogspot.com. Im a newbie, still learning about blogging and some people tell me "blogging is all about talk what's u want and what's in ur mind" and there is no limit. Is it true? Im not sure, so today i just do some adjustment to my page but still not satisfied with the outcome.

Ermm.. do we need a topic to talk about? I dont think so, unless u have friends with the same interest with you. So today i just want u guys to get to know which band i like the most. And the band is Radiohead. Enough said, let's enjoy the song.

My very 1st entry..

Sunday, the day where all the people in Malaysia stay at home and some might go shopping and watching movie with their friends, bf and gf, except Kelantan and Terengganu cause their public holiday is on Friday.
But on this sunny sunday, im still here do nothing but just thinking how to make my life better and healthier than before. And suddenly i was thinking about unit trust which is my friend invite me to join last few weeks as agent. Should i make my step by joining this?, and i think i already make my decision. Why dont i give a chance to myself to try?

So.. let's the journey begin. And i'll post to u what will i do in my becoming post.